reading through the bible

I’m going to read through the Bible in historical order. feel free to join me on this journey. it’s going to take a while. in my understanding, the Bible is divisive; just look at how many denominations exist in christianity alone. I’m sure it’s the same for every religion founded some couple hundred years ago. you got christians in the kkk as much as muslims that are terrorists; both are the same and an embarrassment the world over.

so, as I said, I’m going to read the Bible in historical order. I’ll probably read about 3-5 chapters a day and really dissect the mess out of it. I realllllyyyy wanna know what’s going on. the first time I read through, I noticed that someone (a hell of a lot of people) lied about who God is. The first time I read through, God has a lot of compassion and a hell of a lot of patience for His creation. Let’s see if that’s the same the second time around; rumor has it that God is the same yesterday and today.

I’m a black woman, but that will be removed in my reading; in other words, I’ll try to be as unbiased as possible. I know my ancestors had to listen to their slave owners talk about some “slaves, obey your masters” and not being able to hear the rest of that passage and probably wondering how their slave owners were men/women of God but raped them throughout the night and sold their children like it was nothing. so I’ll keep my bias minimal when I come across passages of justice and mercy. cuz let me tell you how I cried during Jeremiah 29 and how that resonated with being black in America.

the Bible has been used to refine as much as tear down, and I just want to get to the heart of the matter. who were the people who wrote these books? what was the climate and context of the time period in which these books were written? is it applicable to today or are we really reaching in some aspects? how is the church to face injustice? how did racism find its way into the church? who is God? what is the role of the one who serves God? what happened in Egypt that it had to be written that sexing up your sibling is wrong? How often did Egyptians commit incest that it was condemned from many angles? did Jesus look like Idris Elba, Steve Kornacki, Hasan Minhaj? what about abortion? what about women: property, human, both, neither? an apple, a banana, or just a mess?

join me and let’s answer these questions.


Race In America: the results of my survey.

Thanks to all 49 of you who participated in my survey! Below are the results.

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and as for the responses? For now, either you’re tired of racism, you don’t care, you wish you could do more, or you don’t know what to do. most of the white folks, y’all don’t know what to do, you couldn’t care less, or you do know what to do, and opposition comes from those you love most. and black folks, other people of color, y’all, we, are tired of racism obvi. And now my personal thoughts.

i don’t know what to tell you if you fall into the category of denying other people’s pain to retain your comfortability. i was reading the comments under an article (never do that), and i saw this quote: “no longer lend your strength to that which you wish to be free from.” so, i’m done with racism and trying to tell people what it is and why you shouldn’t do it. seriously? you need a reason not to be racist? and it is not up to the oppressor to decide when justice has been met for the oppressed. that’s like a rapist saying that the person they raped will be alright after a while. you don’t get to decide when someone has healed from the pain you caused. until you change your actions, your words are hollow, fickle, fake. i was going to do a series on racism, but i’m not the one who needs to do it, and i won’t. those who are recovering racists need to, not me. you, recovering racist, know how racist people think and ought to challenge that. i can’t. i don’t know what it is to oppress people because of who they are and feel good about it, but you do. you know what it is to have privilege and see it work in your favor. you know what it is to have a government that has your best interests in mind. i don’t and can’t speak to those who do.

people are stuck in their ways of thinking. but when you come to know God, you are no longer of the world, just in it to do His will. and, he transforms and renews your mind. my mind was transformed when i was 23 years old. i got baptized when i was 7. but i promise you, ever since that day in september 2015, my life has never been the same. finally, i felt God’s peace and presence surrounding me, and i wish i could explain how it felt, but i do know it surpassed all understanding.

and that’s what i want for white people who hate me because i’m black or think they’re better than me because they’re white, or are just scared of what to do with a system they don’t want anymore. Let God transform you, let Him have your heart. Fear not what will happen when you renounce a system that has taken your spirit from you.  whiteness is one hell of a drug. it gives you privilege and rights not afforded to others. but is it worth it to gain the whole world and lose your soul? I rebuke that stronghold over you in Jesus’ name. I pray over you that your eyes would be opened to the evil that white supremacy is and why it truly may seem like it benefits you but only destroys your soul in the process. it breeds apathy and a dismissal of your brothers and sisters who struggle under a system that only helps you. I want you to be free from that, to be free from that burden of sin, to be free from the fear of those who aren’t white! but you have to want it, too.  and i know some of you may be seething right now, becoming angry at these words i’ve written. if you are, i want you to reflect on that emotion; what triggered it? what caused it? why are you angry?

and that’s what i want for black people and other people of color who think they are less than or not worthy of humanity because of a lie told one day that who you are is unworthy. your skin radiates, soaks up the sun, resists aging, and you think that’s unworthy? Your hair defies gravity as it grows towards our Creator in praise! and you think that’s unworthy? Satan, this planet, has tried to steal, kill, and destroy us for so long, but I declare in Jesus’ name no longer. in a system, a country, a world, that looks to do work against you, your very existence is resistance. You are smart, you are capable, and you are enough. all of our lives, we have been told our noses too big, return to where we came from, our hair too unruly, our existence too much. There is so much man can do to the body, but he cannot touch your spirit.

the best way to overcome your hatred, your fear, is to reject everything that feeds those things and start over. will you do that with me?